Snap out of it...! KP

You hold me..
And I gripp back...
Hopelessly in "Love" I cant see
How to get in the right track
I cry myself to sleep when you through things in my face
what a disgrace
i cant seem to let you go
when I know your a womanizer and a damn hore!
I SHOULD say "Get out! I dont need you anymore!!"
But somehow i still hold on
We're a perfect example of Eminem's song
"I love the way you lie"
Because we can't seem to say goodbye...

^^^^^^This is what how i see you ^^^^^^
SNAP OUT OF IT!

Dedicated to "KP"

I thought we would be friends
til the ends
of time...
I thought you would be there
to comfort me
and pull back my hair
and wipe away every tear...
I thought I finally found a friend in you
who would be there and pull me through
all the Bull life would throw
But doesnt matter what I do
You still hurt, and it breaks my heart into a million pieces
and i look up to the sky and ask Jesus
why does he allow this?
You hurt.. and i do too...
Get it through your head
I want your heart beating...not lieing on the ground dead
I cant watch you cry anymore
stand up and leave HIM alone..
Your worth more than gold
for sure..
clean those tears because I'll forever be your #1 Girl...
=]

25 to life ~~~~ Eminem

Too late
For the other side
Caught in a chase
25 to life


Too late
For the other side
Caught in a chase
25 to life


Too late
I can't keep chasing it
Caught in a chase
25 to life


I don't think she understands
The sacrifices that I made
Maybe if this bitch had acted right
I would have stayed
But I've already wasted over half my life
I would have laid down and died for you
I longer cry for you
No more pain
Bitch you took me for granted
Took my heart and ran it straight into the planet
Into the dirt
I can no longer stand it
Now my respect I demand it
Imma take control of this relationship
Command it
And I'm gonna be the boss of you now goddammit
And what I mean is that
I'm will no longer let you control me
So you better hear me out
This much you owe me
I gave up my life for you
Totally devoted to you
Why I've stayed
Faithful all the way
This is how I fucking get repaid?


Look at how I dress
Fucking baggy sweats
Go to work a mess
Always in a rush to get back to you
I ain't heard you yet
Not even once say you appreciate me
I deserve respect
I've done my best to give you
Nothing less then perfectness
And I know that if I end this
I'll no longer have nothing left
But you keep treating me like a staircase
It's time to fucking step
And I wont be coming back
So don't hold your fucking breath
You know what you've done
No need to go in depth
I told you you'd be sorry
If I fucking left
I laughed while you wept
How's it feel now?
Yeah funny ain't it
You neglected me
Did me a favor
Let all my spirit free
You've said
Got a special place for you
In my heart
That I have kept
It's unfortunate but it's


Too late
For the other side
Caught in a chase
25 to life


Too late
For the other side
Caught in a chase
25 to life


I feel like
When I bend over backwards for you
All you do is laugh
Cuz that ain't good enough
You expect me to fold myself in half
Till I snap
Don't think I'm loyal
All I do is rap
How can I moonlight on the side
I have no life outside of that
Don't I give you enough of my time?
You don't think so do you?
Jealous when I spend time with the girls
Why I'm married to you still
Man I don't know
But tonight I'm serving you with papers
I'm divorcing you
Go marry someone else
And make em famous
And take away their freedom
Like you did to me
Treat em like you don't need em
And they ain't worthy of you
Feed em
The same shit that you made me eat
I'm moving on
Forget you
Oh now I'm special
I didn't feel special when I was wit you
All I ever felt was this
Helplessness
Imprisoned by a selfish bitch
Chew me up and spit me out
I fell for this
So many times
It's ridiculous
And still I stick with this
I'm sick of this
But in my sickness
And addiction
Your addictive as they get
Evil as they come
Vindictive as they make em
My friends keep asking me
Why I can't just walk away from
I'm addicted
To the pain, the stress
The drama
I'm drawn to shit
So I guess I'm a mess
Cursed and blessed
But this time imma
Ain't changing my mind
I'm climbing out this abyss
Your screaming as I walk out
That I'll be missed
But when you spoke of people
Who meant the most to you
You left me off your list
Fuck you hip hop
I'm leaving you
My life sentence is served bitch
And it's just


Too late
For the other side
Caught in a chase
25 to life


Too late
For the other side
Caught in a chase
25 to life


Too late
Caught in a chase
25 to life

Your voice is so beautiful
I can listen to it all day
It just sounds so wonderful
I don't know what to say

I feel calm
I feel warm
I even feel your love
As I hear that voice

I wish I could see you now
And hear that elegant voice
To feel your comfort
To feel your ease
Love me now and forever please..
=D

I love you, but I'm not in love with you

I love you, but I'm not in love with you.
I want your friendship minus your desire.
I would not lead you falsely or betray you.
I feel the tenderness, but not the fire.
I have no reason for my lack of yearning,
No explanation for what I don't feel,
No other love to whom I might be turning,
No anguish to suggest this isn't real.
Passion is a horse that knows no master,
And I cannot with fences make it stay.
It must run free towards daylight or disaster,
Awake to glory in no other way.
So I must say what you don't want to hear,
But it's a truth that both of us must bear.

I Love you etc.

I love you & etc.
As I have never loved.
You are the one, of all so far,
That I'm most certain of.
I'll do anything, etc.,
To keep your cool green eyes,
And make you smile that golden smile,
And still your lonely sighs.
You're the greatest & etc.
Guy I've ever met.
Right now you are my heart and soul,
Etcetera & etcet.

A teenage girl's first crush...

A teenage girl's first crush is . . . well, crushing.
Her body isn't hers, nor is her mind.
She finds herself shivering, shaking, blushing,
Weak, tormented, sick, and going blind.
And why? Because some guy might look her way,
Then cast his eyes as quickly to the ground;
Some special one, for reasons she can't say,
Whose voice makes her feel faint when he's around.
But now my crush on you has been returned,
And so the two of us stand on some brink:
It can't be love so young, and yet we've learned
Love does its will, no matter what we think.
Slowly, slowly now--we mustn't rush:
Let's enjoy this first sweet teenage crush

The Bitter Truth...

You say one thing
Yet you mean another
You try to be up front
While hiding beneath a cover

Why are you so selfish?
And why so ignorant?
What exactly does love mean to you
Or should I say, meant?

I've never known someone so fake
Someone who can't speak the truth
Someone so terribly insecure
Someone so cruel, someone like you

Why did you have to be like this
You started off quite fine
You would always say how much you care
I guess that was just another "line"

I just sit around and remember
Of how much I used to enjoy your name
And how I so dearly loved
To play your little game

But now finally I know
That you aren't at all what I thought
And its a damn shame too,
Because I really liked you a lot

Juliet's First Love

Everything was perfect
Like a relationship should be
Time spent together
Honesty trust till
Eternity

I never knew how much one day could mean to me
I guess I was blind
Not willing to see

My love of my life had to leave
Face to Face he slowly, patiently
Explained everything to me

Full of pain, shock
Not wanting him to leave
Was the hardest part that I did not want to believe

Silence, grieving
My heart could not take
I wanted to fall in a deep sleep and never awake

For the last time I look deep in his big blue eyes
And all I could see
Was a heart broken lover
Because of me

My Romeo has gone
But maybe he will return
To behold me his Juliet
Without saying one word

I need to move on
That is what I tried to remind myself
But it's hard for I could never love
anyone else.

What did you expect?

You came into my life
As quickly as you left.
You grabbed a cutting knife
And sliced right through my breast.

You didn't mean to hurt
But what did you expect?

My heart now cut in two
It feels beyond repair.
Injury done by you
God, life just isn't fair.

You didn't mean to hurt
But what did you expect?

So here we are, just friends,
But I long to be more.
Desire with no end
Throbbing from my core.

You didn't mean to hurt
But what did you expect?

Death of an Angel...

 once knew a lady named
Misery
she lived in a damaged world
she calls to me in transparent dreams

a lonely star
outside
the closed universe

she was my twisted soul

long ago
she experienced
the darkest of
pain

beauty was something
she could not
believe

I once knew an angel named
Evil
she traveled like a
ghost into the shadows

her heart was dying for some form of
life

all seems balanced
now
the angel burns to
die

Silence, Emptiness, And Confusion

Silence builds an awful wreckage of a girl
It feeds on loneliness and creates a void
Gray shadows haunt and torment and torture
A teenager is stricken and destroyed

There is no sound of laughter or happiness here
The little one has thrown in the towel today
Somber, melancholy moods decay the soul
It is futile to hope and dream and pray

Emptiness builds a home in this woman
In this girl, this child where hollows have bred
A deepening sea of nowhereness consumes
And eats away at every connecting thread

Confusion feeds like a savage inside her,
Leaving nothing considered worthy remains
Destined to walk through life less ordinary
Alone, exiled, different and disdained.

Everybody goes away....

In my room broken hearted, why could't you stay
I guess it's true what they say everybody goes away
I'm too strong to let a tear drip
But I'm slippin cause I caught a tear slip
Now you're gone and in the streets where I roam
I got my head to the floor one hand on my chrome
I'm in a foster home tryin to stay optimistic
Determined to make a way so I beat the statistics
The day I met my mother caused my heart to soften
Everybody goes away now she lies in a coffin
My mama told me there'll be days like this
The cryin eyes of my sis
Caused me to reminice of all the people I lost along the way
I shook my best friend begging him to stay
I wish I could go back to yesterday
But it's true what they say everybody goes away
Everybody goes away

Sorry Aint Enough....

Don't Wanna See Your Head Down.
No Quiero Que Te Pongas Trieste.
Would Of Never Forgave You If You had Did It.
Te Quiero Tanto That Other Fool Meant Nada To Me And Now I Pay For What I Did.
Baby I'm Sorry! I Wish That I Could Change The Past Pero No Puedo
Puederme Levantar Y Que Todo Esto Fuera Un Sueno.
Please Just Stop Thinking That I'ma Going To Do It Again
Deja De Pensar Que What I Said Was Just Pertend.
Esto Es Enserio And I Know That You've Heard It All Before,
This Time I Promise Won't Be Tempted Mijo Anymore
I Know What Goes Threw Your Mind When You Look At Me.
You Think That I'm Just Playing Games And We Ain't Meant To Be.
I Don't Want You To Think That We Were Just A Mistake.
What I Did Was Wrong But My Love Was Never Fake
And I Don't Care What Your Homies Say About Me They Want Everything We Had
And Thats The Reason They Dislike Me

When I'm Sorry Just Ain't Enough,
When I'm Only Crying & Dieing No Longer Thinking Of Waking Up
When The Pain That I'm Feeling Is So Strong
And All I Can Think About Is You Just To Hold On.
When I'm Sorry Just Ain't Enough
When I'm Only Crying & Dieing No Longer Thinking Of Waking Up
When The Pain That I'm Feeling Is Hell
And All I Can Think About Is You With Somebody Else.

I Know Theres People Saying That I Ain't Even Worth It
That You Were A Fool And Even Probably Diserved It,
But Let Me Make It Clear To You That I Have No Exuses
Maybe When I'm Alone ,But More Than Half Of Them Are Useless.
I dont Get It, I Don't Know Why, I Don't Like It When You Ask Me That
I Feel So Bad And I'm Still Working On Forgeting That.
No Lie To The Times That I Was Cryin Cuz Of Missin Him,
Being With You And Acting Cool Was Like Dissing Him
I Can't Belive I Even Thought That He Was The One For Me
I Can't Belive I Even Thought That He Was Ride For Me.
Every Body Told Me That He Wasn't What I Thought
But In The Heat Of The Moment You Forget That.
Now I Don't mean To Reminice ,I'm Just Telling You What Happen.
I Hope That You Look Back Someday And That We're Laughing
He Wasn't Half Of What You Are Baby I Swear
But I'm Down For Whatever you Decide I'll Understand It

You Got Your Reasons Why You Can't Begin To Trust Me
But All I'm Asking Is For You To Love Me.I Know I Caused You Pain Y No Te Lo Meresias.
I Was Foolish Not To See Lo Que Yo En Ti Tenia
But Now It Might Be To Late For Anything Looks Like You Already Made Up Your Mind Boy
On Everything.Guess Thats The Reason Why You Ain't Picken Up When I'm Calling Cuz
Your With Someone That They Say Gots You Smiling And
When They Tell Me I Think Of You Being With Her Just The Way We Use To Do.
Looking Out Expecting Pero Nada
I've Been Like This Des De Que Me Madates A La Chingada.
Now What Am I To Do But Sit And Wait Here
Maybe You'll Change Your Mind Mijo Just Come Here
But Until Then I Won't Call You Anymore I Promise If This Is Meant To Be I'll Be With You......

When I'm Sorry Just Ain't Enough,
When I'm Only Crying & Dieing No Longer Thinking Of Waking Up
When The Pain That I'm Feeling Is So Strong
And All I Can Think About Is You Just To Hold On.
When I'm Sorry Just Ain't Enough
When I'm Only Crying & Dieing No Longer Thinking Of Waking Up
When The Pain That I'm Feeling Is Hell
And All I Can Think About Is You With Somebody Else.....

Forever and Always...

Doesnt matter how hard I try to stop thinking about you....I cant
I find it rather hard
To just give up what we had
Just the thought of what happened makes me get sad
I get mad
with myself, that I caused this
Now all that's left is to reminice
upon what could have been
all the destroyed dreams
The broken pieces I'd like to put back together
However,
You don't allow it
Jus admit
You'll miss me the way I'm missing you
Because I know its true
Think about it....
Remember Forever and Always I'll be Loving You...
=]